Wednesday, 15 July 2015

Natural romance

Down here I sat, with my throat parched, hoping for a miracle to end my suffering. And just then, I felt a drop of her, and our contact gave rise to a mesmerizing redolence! Everyone who inhaled the pleasant odour wanted more. Just like I did.
 I called on to her, I wanted to feel more of her. She made me feel rejuvenated, but instead I saw a flash of light accompanied by a loud roar. 
I was taken aback... I think she wanted me to have patience and wait for her to come again. 
Surprisingly, I could feel drops of her coming down on to me again, more and more of them, and finally, she poured onto me and washed my distress away! 
This was my first rain after all! All the dust and muck on me got flushed away and my thirst was quenched, alas! 
The way she made me feel was incredible, I felt what I had not felt in years. She made me feel as if she was here only for me, to relieve me, to make me feel hers. 
The way she emptied herself totally to seep into me, proved how much she loved me! I felt her move through me and inside the veins of the roots of plants that I hold, and I could feel her in the heart of my universe...
She gave me life! She made me feel alive... She gave birth to so many creatures to stay with me and generously gave her gifts to all☺️
She gave new life to every element she touched and made my world more colourful. 
She brought mighty seas, quiet rivers,  multihued sweet flowers and astonishing new fauna! 
She came to see me three to four times every day and night and our romance delighted me☺️ but gradually she started to show up lesser, but we still enjoyed each other's presence
After a few months, she came rarely but always spent as much time as she could with me and later, she abandoned me...
She would never come again. Although she had left behind all her beautiful creations for me, I still missed her. She had put an end to my problems, but gave rise to a new one. 
I missed her more than ever and felt disheartened thinking that she wouldn't ever come again. 
The flowers started to limp and animals grew pale. 
 I too spent months crying and hoping that she'd come to me again, cause I knew she loved me like no other and she wanted to be mine too... 
But as about eight months passed and I had lost all hopes of meeting my love again, she came back to me, in the most powerful of forms, and drenched me in her never ending love. I felt the same rush as I had felt before and I knew she felt it too.
Our romance began once again and left me happier than ever. All her creations rejoiced to see her again and happiness spread abundantly. I had missed her and she had missed me too, so she poured onto me on and on and on all day☺️
I asked her why she had abandoned me, and then she explained, that it's our distance that'll increase our love and that she has to stay away from me for a few months even though she never wants to. It was a compulsion she said. A divine order. And I would've agreed to do anything as long as I'd have her, so I made peace with the fact that she'll meet me only 3 months a year❤️
Rain has been so loving to me that often she sends a cool, moist breeze to make me feel her presence when she isn't here. How tender her love feels through these breezes! 
Our distance will never contaminate our love because she always will remain loyal to me and shower her love whenever she gets the opportunity Our sacred bond is forever to exist❤️

Wednesday, 1 July 2015

Dear future daughter.

Dear future daughter,
I'm sorry for all the times I won't understand you,
I'm sorry for when I won't understand your NEED to buy that dress.
I'm sorry for when I won't understand why you should to go to that party.
I'm sorry for all the times you will cry because of my words. 
I'm sorry for when I won't allow you to wear 'that' outfit to 'that' place.
I'm sorry for when I won't understand your obsession with a pop star.
I'm sorry for when I'll scold you for turning up that noisy new song too loud. 
I'm sorry for when I'll get angry because of My stress.
I'm sorry for the times you'll have to see me and your father fight.
I'm sorry for all the pointless questions I'll ask about your outing.
I'm sorry for embarrassing you in front of your friends. 
I'm sorry for trying to be just a friend to you as your best friend is. 
I'm sorry for trying to come too close. 
I'm sorry for taking petty issues too far, 
but what I'm NOT SORRY for is caring. 

I'm NOT sorry that I'm protective of you,
I'm NOT sorry that I'm scared of this wicked world. 
I'm NOT sorry that I'm scared for you, and I'm NOT sorry that I can't always be the way you expect me to be. 
I'm NOT sorry for the generation gap, but I'll always respect it. 
I'm ONLY sorry that I want you to learn independence and yet exercise some control over you, only because you'll always be my little girl. 
I'll wait for you to step into my shoes and understand what I'm going through. 
I'm NOT sorry for having to be your mother. 
I'm sorry that I can't be a friend all the time. 
I'M ONLY SORRY FOR ALL THE THINGS MY LOVE FORCES ME TO DO. 
Things that I never want to do, but my heart compels me to. Things that make me toss and turn every sleepless night, trying to make me accept them, but all I do is fear them more.

Our gap will always remain, as will my care and concern. I'm sorry if you don't understand this on all those days when I say NO to you, but I'm sure you'll do, one day.
Because when I was just like you, I fathomed the dilemma MY mother went through when she had to say NO for something I wanted.
Where how much ever she tried to agree with me, somewhere or the other, she lost, and her heart won. Her care won and love for me conquered her entirely. 
And some day I'll be in a similar position. 
So yes dear, 
you'll always find my love in EVERY decision I take for you, no matter what it is. And it would never harm you, I hope it'll always be right for you at that point in time. 
My decisions might change with age, and scoldings might soften, but my love and concern will remain the same and my fear & care might still win over some of your requests. And I'll be sorry, yet again...
I will always love you and I would hope that every mother in the world gets to feel the joy of having a daughter; a daughter like you.  :')
Awaiting you,
Your mother.